Long before I knew,
a song played in tune.
Soft and dim in hue,
sung by my sleeping blue.
Was doom by the day,
and cursed by the night.
But caught in some bliss,
but not before twilight.
I cried in silenced,
broke those promises.
And crash and shattered,
all in thousand pieces.
Then I prayed to God,
and hold you my heart.
Hoping we could bond,
though I know you don't want.
Confuse by your melody,
as love was just modesty.
Wrap in gold and silvery,
all this damn chained symphony.
Untitled (Krezha Mae R. Denum)
do you think i need help?
cause you see, I've been laying here in my bed for hours yet I can’t sleep… thinking about small things and big things… like about how would my grades turn up if I’m not making it as my top priority? or is it possible for me to finish such Thesis??? I mean, it is just because I’m too afraid that life would eventually get on me? then I have to stop acting like a highschooler cause I’m not a kid or a teen anymore… that I’ve been wasting half of my life for liking someone who’s never ever (even once) would notice me and there’s not a chance at all (like 0.0000001%) that our paths would cross or what’s so ever.
That no matter what I do, what I’ll feel or what I say… I can never change the fact that I’m a total loser and can’t get any self-confidence cause I don’t want people telling me to ‘fuck off’ or ‘get a life’ or even staring at me with those creepy eyes like they’re asking questions ‘how the hell did you manage to do that!?’ or ‘is it really you? or did you cheat!?’ hahahaha… tsk I hate it… whenever no one believes me that I can do things too without being careless or something… that I can also stop being dumb and stupid even just for once to complete such task…
No. I can’t do this cause they’ll say I’m too old for that. No, I can’t act that way cause they’ll say I’m too young for that. tsk… sometimes I would ask my self, “do I really need to exist? or I’m just a mere fragment of somebody’s perfect life?”
And I’m not saying this just because… It’s been going on for years now… and I really think I need help…
#srsly
really..
I had an LSS [last song syndrome] to the song I WISH by Cher Lloyd... and I can’t get this out of my head, when especially it tells something about me going through the same damn thing! hahaha gawd! i really bothers me…
[coz I like someone ( Mr. Yuki Furukawa) which I clearly know that I’ve been wasting time trying to catch his eyes]
the chorus goes like this:
I wish I was tall and I wish I was fast, wish I could shop with a bag full of cash! cause if I want you, I gotta have that (come, come kiss me boy)
I wish I had style and I wish I had flash, wish I woke up with a butt and a rack! cause if I want you, I gotta have that (come, come kiss me boy)
gosh… how long has it been??? to be even feels this way!? hahahaha I might be really head-over-snickers to him!
I normally stay interested for one particular person...
for like 3 - 5 months... hahahaha I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED !!!!!!! now, all I can think about is this person... am I such a jerk!? :) no care, no worries.
argh!
Between reality and fantasy, I'm the only thing that stands in their way... What if I'll move? does that mean that they can become one??? *annoys* really!? this makes my head hurts! hahahaha unThinkable!!!
Things I might deny in the near future! hehehe ^.~
At this very moment, I'm inLove with this man whom I really Don't know (personally) and although that's the case... I still can't resist from falling head-over-flat.faced with this man in the picture! hahahaha [now I know, I'm freaky!]
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~LMH *drools*
What am I doing?
Hmmm, actually I'm reading a Manga right now... I don't know, the stories really touches me, they are not even real right? hahaha I remember I actually falls in love with an Anime Character to the point of wanting to marry him!
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tsk. tsk. tsk. Does anyone think of any possible way that I can be transported into their world? ~.~
First thing first! ^.^
Well, I was just really fascinated of how many people are now using blogs to post or share something... either totally amazing or a really interesting facts and ideas... Now that I think about it, I really don't know why I even created one? hahaha (OK, now I'm a total nutcracker here!) XD
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To pull it off? I think I might have a good use of this! right!? hahahaha
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